From now on till her final departure from the world in 1920, her time was equally divided between Calcutta and her native village Jayrambati. When the Holy Mother was at Jayrambati, she looked after the needs of her relatives. As her Oungest brother died very Oung, she looked after his wife and child. These relatives tried to gain whatever material advantage they could from her and they were a constant source of worry and annoyance to her.
In her role as a spiritual teacher and Guru she manifested the principle of motherhood. Any body who turned to her for spiritual assistance, she accepted that person and initiated him as her disciple. This no doubt caused her immense suffering. She once said, “At the time of initiation the power of the Guru is transmitted to the disciple and the Guru takes on himself the sins of the disciples and suffers so much from physical maladies. It is extremely difficult to be a Guru; for he has to be responsible for the disciple’s sins. He is affected by them.”
In spite of all the suffering, her motherly love and tenderness for all never allowed any such consideration of personal suffering to stand in the way of giving refuge to those who went to her. Speaking to a disciple she said, “My child, several among those who come here are up to anything in life. No type of sin has been left undone by them. But when they come here and address me as mother, I forget everything and they get more than they deserve.”
Because of the utter purity of her life, she was extremely sensitive to anything that was unholy and sinful. When people with sinful propensities touched her feet, she would immediately suffer from a burning sensation. She once told a disciple, “Some people touch my feet, and that refreshes me wonderfully. Again there are others whose touch gives me a terrible burning sensation. I feel it like the sting of a wasp. Only by applying the Ganges water do I get some relief.”
Yet she considered it a proud privilege to suffer for others. Once when a disciple did not want to touch her feet, thinking it would cause her suffering, she said, “No, my child, we are born for this purpose. If we do not accept other’s sins and sorrows and do not assimilate these, who else will do so? Who else will bear the responsibilities of the sinners and the afflicted?”
She would become very sad if no new devotees came to her on a particular day to receive initiation. She would say, “There is no devotee today’ . . .” addressing the Master she would say, ‘This day too is gone in vain! No one turned up today! Did Ou not say, “You will have to do something or the other every day?” She kept on looking out to see if anOne was coming, saying to the Master with fixed eyes, ‘How is it, Master? Will the day go in vain?'” Apart from spending her time in spiritual ministry the Holy Mother also went on pilgrimages. The last eleven years of her life until her passing away on the 21st July 1920 were very hectic. Apart from spiritual ministrations to seekers, she also guided the activities of the Ramakrishna Organization. On Tuesday, July 21, 1920, at half past one in the morning she breathed heavily several times and entered into a deep samadhi from which she never returned to the consciousness of the physical world.