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MY KOLKATA GUIDEBOOK

By Dr. Vidagdha Bennett

Most tourists arrive in Kolkata clutching the latest guidebook to India as if it were a lifeline tossed in a stormy and troubled sea. The 2007 edition from Lonely Planet, to take one popular example, is reassuringly crammed with well-researched facts on all the practical aspects of travelling in the sub-continent. The section on Kolkata prescribes exactly what to do, where to stay according to your budget, places to eat – and how to exit the city rapidly once you have exhausted the slender range of options that are listed. In practice, I found that this tome is, without doubt, a compendium of vital information should you happen to be a ‘casual’ traveller, someone who is just passing through the city on the way to, say, Darjeeling or Varanasi, someone who wants to skim the surface and cross Kolkata off the list of 100 places you hoped to see before you die.

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Each Soul Has Something Very Special

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Alas, how we waste
Our precious time
In the company of
Jealousy and criticism.

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Each soul, each heart
And each life
Has something very special
To offer
For the betterment of humanity.


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There is only one examination
That cannot and will not stop,
And that is the examination
Of self-improvement.

- Sri Chinmoy

Poems Selected from Sri Chinmoy Books

Image by Abhishek, Sri Chinmoy Centre Galleries

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A bliss lived in her heart too large for heaven

The immense remoteness of her trance had passed;
Human she was once more, earth’s Savitri,
Yet felt in her illimitable change.
A power dwelt in her soul too great for earth,
A bliss lived in her heart too large for heaven;
Light too intense for thought and love too boundless
For earth’s emotions lit her skies of mind
And spread through her deep and happy seas of soul.
All that is sacred in the world drew near
To her divine passivity of mood.
A marvellous voice of silence breathed its thoughts.
All things in Time and Space she had taken for hers; 

- Sri Aurobindo

Excerpt from Savitri

Book Twelve:  Epilogue The Return to Earth Page 716

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On A Rainy Kolkata Day

By Dr. Vidagdha Bennett

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Jorasanko Thakur Bari

25th January 2008: It has been raining heavily all night ? a solid, drenching rain with no intermission. Nor did it arrive with thunder and lightning. It just came; to deluge the alleyways and the little stalls of the street vendors, to wash the dust from buildings and rickshaws, to cleanse the air and give the parched city a taste of winter. I emerge to find that everyone has pulled out their humble assortment of vests, scarves, socks and black umbrellas. Our hotel guard is wearing a thick woollen khaki uniform that looks as if it may have done service in the British army long ago.

After greeting my new acquaintances ? the old man who sells the English newspapers and charges four times the newsstand price, the manager of the internet shop who has taken pity on my inept skills, the moneychanger who waves enthusiastically from behind his counter when the dollar climbs up a fraction, the young cook who makes perfect lemon pancakes and milk coffee on a tiny, antiquated stove ? I reflect on the day?s itinerary.

As if by design, my Lonely Planet Guidebook falls open at the map showing destinations to the north of the Maidan and my eyes light on two words: Tagore?s house. It is, without doubt, the perfect day to go to the house of the Poet.

               ?The sky is overcast with clouds and the rain is
       ceaseless. I know not what this is that stirs in me ? I
know not its meaning.?

- Rabindranath Tagore, Gitanjali 27

I catch a taxi to Jorasanko Thakur Bari, the distinguished seat of the Tagore family. It is located at 6, Dwarkanath Tagore Lane in north Kolkata. This vast and spacious red brick dwelling was built in 1784 by Prince Dwarkanath Tagore, the Poet?s grandfather. In his book, ?Rabindranath Tagore: His Life and Work? (1921), Edward Thompson describes it intriguingly:

?The Jorasanko house is a vast, rambling congeries of mansions and rooms, representing the whims of many generations.?

It is here that Bengal?s greatest poet was born, here that he spent half his life and here that he breathed his last. I have come to pay tribute to the beginning of his life and its ending, after eighty sublime years on this earth.

When Rabindranath came into the world, on May 7th, 1861, he was the ninth son of the illustrious Maharshi Debendranath Tagore, the eldest son of Prince Dwarkanath. The Tagore family had firmly established itself in the vanguard of Bengal?s cultural and literary renaissance. Both the men and women of the household were progressive and forward thinking. They were involved in diverse pursuits. In an age where women were largely confined to the andar mahal, the inner family quarters, the women of the Tagore house rode horses on the Maidan, wrote poetry, composed songs and participated fully in the lively political, religious, philosophical and literary discussions.

Rabindranath thrived in this stimulating environment. In his essay, ?Ideals of Education? (1929), he later wrote:

?I was brought up in an atmosphere of aspiration, aspiration for the expansion of the human spirit. We in our home sought freedom of power in our language, freedom of imagination in our literature, freedom of soul in our religious creeds and that of mind in our social environment.?

The main building of Jorasanko Thakur Bari is now a museum. It is so revered by the Bengalis that visitors leave their shoes downstairs near the ticket office. It seemed I was the only visitor on this rainy morning. I climbed the stairs in bare feet and gained the second floor. As soon as I stepped onto the wide verandah overlooking the lawn, I was transported to another world, a world of indescribable enchantment and mystery. Here a little boy had hid for hours on end in an old palki abandoned in the corner, or stood at the railings, gazing dreamily at the scene below, inhaling the scent of almond blossoms, listening to the rousing song of the curd-seller, counting the hackney carriages that passed in the lane. I could almost make out, through the sheets of rain, the black umbrella and hazy form of Rabindranath?s tutor picking his way through the puddles to reach the main building.

And as I looked through Rabindranath?s eyes at a Bengal of long ago, I realised that the young poet was shaped as much by the things he observed outside ? the sights and sounds that flooded his senses, the seasons that came and went ? as by the life within its walls of the grand Thakur Bari.

In spite of the intellectual and cultural richness of the household, he was a lonely and often solitary child. His father was frequently absent, supervising the family?s zamindary estates, his mother was constantly ill (she died an untimely death when Rabindranath was only thirteen), his brothers and sisters, whom he adored, were many years older than he was. He felt estranged at school and begged to be allowed to have private tuition. Even that proved to be infrequent and inadequate. Essentially, it meant that responsibility for the boy devolved upon servants. Confined to the rambling house, and often rooted to a single spot by a chalk circle drawn on the floor near a window, the boy was left to his own devices. ?Beyond my reach was this limitless thing called the Outside,? he explained. Thus he was drawn to play with light and shadow, his imagination animated the forms of clouds, the shapes of trees and the rustle of leaves. Many years later, he wrote of one particular banyan tree in the courtyard:

?With tangled roots hanging down from your branches,
O ancient banyan tree,
You stand day and night like an ascetic wrapt in meditation.
Do you recall the child whose fancy played with your shadows??

At the tender age of eight, this future Nobel Prize-winner made his first attempt at Bengali poetry ? ?Jal pawray/pata nawray? (?Water falls/Leaves tremble.?) It was a portent of the exquisite lyrics, full of delicate atmospheric touches, that were to follow. Contemporary Bengali poet Sri Chinmoy writes:

?Tagore was essentially a Master-poet by temperament, immediately and exquisitely conscious of every claim of mellifluous beauty in all its multifarious forms. His was a personality of singular charm, and a character of singular sweetness.?

- Rabindranath: The Myriad-Minded (1961)

Niharranjan Ray in his penetrating essay ?Rabindranath and World-Life? (?Rabindranath O Bishwajiban?) asks of Tagore?s poetic gift: ?Does this creative impulse well up from within only? Isn?t there an external source for it? Does this impulse, which Rabindranath calls kautukmayi antaryami [the mysterious indwelling deity] awaken spontaneously without any external stimuli?? Tagore himself reveals the answer in poems such as this:

?The great pageant of thee and me has overspread the sky. With the tune of thee and me all the air is vibrant, and all ages pass with the hiding and seeking of thee and me.?

- Gitanjali 71

The experiences of Rabindranath?s childhood, where he was always ?athirst for the far-away?, were to become a constant theme in his adult life. It is the Poet?s inner cry that awakened his creative impulse. His life was defined by his quest for union with the Lord of Life, Jiban Debata, who dwelt at times inside the inmost recesses of his heart and at other times inside the loveliness of the created world.

Was Tagore?s longing to become one with this mysterious innermost Being ever fulfilled? In his moving tribute to Rabindranath, Sri Chinmoy affirms:

?By his soul-awakening songs of transcendental beauty, Rabindranath charmed the world and seized the All-Blissful.?

This spiritual ideal of identifying oneself with the Bliss of the divine is expressed by the Upanishadic seers:

From Delight we came into existence.
In Delight we grow.
At the end of our journey?s close, into Delight we retire.

- Taittiriyopanisad III.6

Perhaps here was the meaning of my visit to the place where the Poet came into existence and also retired from the earthly scene.

Tearing myself away from the verandah and all its suggestive mysteries, I entered the cool recesses of the family dining room, with its low black tables and backless chairs on which one might comfortably sit cross-legged. I could not escape the sensation that I was interrupting some lively family debate. I then passed through to the two living rooms, where some of Tagore?s robes are displayed in an almirah. Here and there it was possible to discern that the thin fabric had been heart-breakingly mended by hand.

Had the Poet worn these robes on his European travels when his striking physical appearance, as much as his poems and songs, had such a profound effect on those who came into contact with him? Who can forget the description given by the distinguished editor Ernest Rhys of the day in 1912 when there was a knock at the door of his house in London? In the words of Rhys: ?When I went into the hall as the maid opened the door, there paused on the threshold, a tall, grey-bearded figure attired in a close grey robe that fell to his feet. For a moment I was abashed. It was as if the prophet Isaiah had come to one?s door.? Satyajit Ray as a young student at Santiniketan was too awed by the university?s founder to approach him, referring to ?Tagore?s prophetic appearance.? Yet only a glass door now separated me from the hem of the Poet?s garment.

The next room was the sanctum sanctorum in which Tagore cast off his mortal frame. The folding screen doors along the length of both sides of the room were open so that one could enter or exit from the wide verandahs freely. Tagore?s sickbed has been replaced by a simple shrine. But the tangible peace inside the room and the subtle radiance that seems to infuse its very air gave me the feeling that he was still lying there in his final days, gazing out upon the rain clouds lowering in the sky and taking his long farewell from this world that he loved so much. ?And because I have loved life, I will love death as well,? he said serenely.

Again, his immortal words from ?Gitanjali? vibrated across the interstices of time:

?When I go from hence let this be my parting word, that what I have seen is unsurpassable. I have tasted of the hidden honey of this lotus that expands on the ocean of light, and thus am I blessed ? let this be my parting word. In this playhouse of infinite forms I have had my play and here have I caught sight of him that is formless. My whole body and my limbs have thrilled with his touch who is beyond touch; and if the end comes here, let it come ? let this be my parting word.?

- Gitanjali 96

On December 3rd, 1939 Tagore had composed a song for his most famous play, ?The Post Office?. The song was supposed to be sung after the death of the boy Amal. But the production for which the song was intended was cancelled and the song was never sung. On his sickbed, Tagore expressed the wish that this particular song should be sung after his death. It subsequently became one of the most favourite songs of Sri Chinmoy who, in many ways, became the latter 20th century musical and poetical heir to Tagore. The song begins, ?Sammukhe shanti parabar?? The translation runs:

?In front of me is the ocean of peace.
Sail the boat, O pilot
You are my companion now.
Take me in your lap.
Along our journey to the infinite
The pole star alone will shine.
Giver of Freedom
Set me free.
May your forgiveness and compassion
Be my eternal resources for the journey ?
May the mortal ties fall away,
May the vast universe
Hold me in embrace,
And with an undaunted heart
May I come to know the Great Unknown.?

It was this prayer-song that I kept hearing inwardly, sung by Sri Chinmoy with that inexpressible longing for the Infinite which is shared by these towering Bengali souls, as I walked slowly up and down the verandas, drifting in and out of rooms at will, while curtains of rain fell to earth in the limitless Outside.

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Replaying History

Article by Dr. Vidagdha Bennett

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Netaji Subhas Chandra Bose

As January 23rd dawned in Kolkata, I did not have to think twice about my destination for the day. It had to be Netaji Bhawan, the ancestral home of the great Bengali freedom-fighter Netaji Subhas Chandra Bose. January 23rd happened to be his 111th birth anniversary and the whole of Kolkata was flooded with pictures of this iconic figure.

Every year, no matter where he was in the world, my spiritual teacher, Sri Chinmoy, used to celebrate Netaji?s birthday. ?For a Bengali,? Sri Chinmoy said, ?these things are in our blood.? Sri Chinmoy looked upon Netaji not only as the foremost national leader of his day but as someone who was imbued with great spiritual depth. He was ?the beloved son of Heaven and earth,? Sri Chinmoy wrote. And, in the dedication to his landmark book on Netaji, published in 1997, Sri Chinmoy said:

Netaji, beauty of the Bengali heart you were.
Netaji, responsibility of the Indian life you were.
Netaji, capacity of the sub-continent-unity you were.

I wanted to experience the depth of this Bengali reverence for myself.

Unsure of my bearings, I took a taxi to 38/2 Elgin Road, South Kolkata. We pulled up just before Netaji Bhawan to find the street partially blocked and the house ringed by armed security guards in white uniforms. In fact, the whole scene was eerily similar to that fateful night of January 16th/17th, 1941, when Netaji made his Great Escape from the house ? under the very eyes of sixty-two members of the British C.I.D. (Criminal Intelligence Department) who were supposed to be detaining him under house arrest.

I was told by one of the guards that a special function would shortly be taking place and both the Governor of West Bengal and the Minister of External Affairs of India were expected. As a result, the house (now the Netaji Research Bureau) was closed for the day. I sat for a while on a narrow ledge on the other side of the street, among some elderly men who were drinking chai out of small earthenware cups and waiting, with the infinite patience of the Indian soul, for something to happen. It gave me time to study the stately yellow colonial-style mansion with its red and green trim. It was easy to imagine Subhas (he became known as Netaji, or ?revered leader?, after leaving the country) peering out through the shutters on the top floor, assessing the vigilance of the British surveillance and going over the daring escape plans he had formulated together with his young nephew and confidant, Sisir K. Bose.

Shyam Benegal in his 2005 film, ?Netaji Subhas Chandra Bose: The Forgotten Hero?, recreated this escape in meticulous detail. Around 1:30 a.m., Sisir nosed the German-made car ? a Wanderer, licence plate BLA 7169 ? out of the big double gates. Subhas was in the back seat, wearing a sherwani, loose pyjamas, a black fur cap and laced European shoes. His disguise was that of a Muslim, but he carried in his pocket a picture of Mother Kali, his tulsi beads and a copy of the Bhagavad Gita. His supposed occupation was that of a travelling insurance inspector.

Unsuspectingly and, in hindsight, astonishingly, the guards waved the car on. Perhaps the Gods were smiling on Subhas. Sisir took the Grand Trunk Road to Barari where his elder brother Asoke lived. On the way, Subhas spoke to him about the great Irish freedom-fighter Eamon de Valera whom he had met in Dublin in 1936. Perhaps he wished to diffuse the tension inside the car by diverting Sisir?s attention. ?At every moment,? Sri Chinmoy writes, ?death threatened to embrace not only Netaji but Sisir Bose himself.?

Eventually they arrived at Asoke?s house, but even then Subhas maintained his disguise in case the servants were listening to their conversation and one of them had been planted as a British agent. He slept in the guest bedroom and in the morning left on foot. Sisir and Asoke later overtook him on the road and drove him to Gomoh. There Subhas alighted from the car, walked across an overbridge, and caught the mail train to Delhi. They never saw him again.

From Delhi, Subhas took the Frontier Mail to Peshawar in the North West Frontier and subsequently made his way by tonga, truck, mule and foot across rugged terrain to Kabul, Afghanistan. During this journey, he was accompanied by Afghan guides. He was dressed as a Pathan and his face was unshaven. Not being able to speak the local tribal language Pashto, he posed as a mute. He reached Kabul on January 31st, 1941 and two months later, after a hazardous journey via Samarkand, Moscow and Rome during wartime conditions, he resurfaced in Berlin in the guise of an Italian nobleman, Signor Orlando Mazzotta.

The courage required to undertake such a journey was underlined by a recently declassified intelligence document which reveals that British agents were ordered to intercept and assassinate him before he reached Germany. Subhas had chosen to seek the aid of Germany in his struggle for independence on the basis of his belief that ?the enemy of my enemy is my friend.?

Meanwhile, back at Elgin Street, Subhas? elder brother Sarat and Sarat?s wife, Bivabati, kept up the illusion that Subhas was still in the house. His meals were delivered as usual and the plates returned to the kitchen empty. Then, after ten days had elapsed, they suddenly raised the alarm that Subhas had mysteriously ?disappeared?. The British were stupefied. How could someone simply vanish from such a closely guarded house? They launched an intensive manhunt throughout India to find him, posting police at every railway station, but by then Subhas was no longer on Indian soil. The next time he returned, it would be with his army of liberation, the I.N.A.

As Sri Chinmoy writes in his book about Netaji, ?His mission was to throw himself into the vortex of self-sacrificing activities with the view to liberating his Motherland from the shackles of foreign yoke.? He also emphasises that this decision was taken only ?after months of prayer and meditation.? Was it the right thing to do? After all, now he had become a fugitive from the law, an enemy of the state. He would nevermore see his dear ones in this life. Sri Chinmoy, at once a Bengali and a spiritual visionary, assures us:

When he escaped his home-internment,
        He was able to see every atom
        Of his Mother Bengal?s being
        Dancing with ecstasy?s height and depth.

After replaying all these historic events in my mind, I resolved to display something of the revered leader?s spirit. Crossing the street in full view of the police, I passed through the gates of Netaji Bhawan without securing the necessary permission. Fortunately, I was not stopped.

Just inside the entrance, set in marble in Netaji?s handwriting, are his deeply moving words:

"In this mortal world, everything perishes and will perish ? but ideas, ideals and dreams do not. One individual may die for an idea ? but that idea will, after his death, incarnate itself in a thousand lives. That is how the wheels of evolution move on and the ideas, ideals and dreams of one generation are bequeathed to the next? "

Everything he said spoke to my heart. In our times, we are struggling to come to terms with the fact that another great Bengali leader has left this mortal world ? Sri Chinmoy. We are heirs to his lofty ideals, ideals for which he lived and died. And if, as Netaji said, ?The progress of this world has depended on dreamers and their dreams,? then Sri Chinmoy was surely been one of the foremost peace-dreamers of the modern era.

Just past the entrance to Netaji Bhawan, housed in a glass case, is the famous Wanderer vehicle by which Netaji made his sensational escape. Continuing on, I saw that a large marquee had been set up at the rear of the house and it was there that the guests were gathering. National songs of the I.N.A. were being played over the loudspeakers and guests were being greeted by Professor Sugata Bose, the son of Sisir Bose. Professor Bose is the Gardiner Professor of History at Harvard University. Coincidentally, Sri Chinmoy had honoured him in New York a few years previously.

I sat down contentedly, sure that if Sri Chinmoy were alive, I would be doing exactly the same thing ? sitting in a function room in some remote corner of the globe, with Netaji?s photograph on the stage, beautifully garlanded, while Sri Chinmoy recounted stories about India?s independence movement and a choir sang his soul-stirring Bengali songs dedicated to Netaji.

Sri Chinmoy began this pattern in 1997, the year of the 50th anniversary of India?s Independence. During the first few weeks of the year, while in Takamatsu, Japan, Sri Chinmoy plunged into an unprecedented study of Netaji?s life and writings, devouring books and articles in both Bengali and English. Rare editions were sent to him from New York and Kolkata. He translated passages into English for which no translation had previously existed. He examined anew the politics of the era before Independence, and particularly the distinctions between the ideas of Netaji and those of Gandhi and Nehru. He felt the rebuffs that Gandhi had given Netaji as keenly as if they had been directed at him personally, becoming convinced that under Netaji?s leadership India would not have been partitioned. And, with every passing day, Netaji?s spirit sang in his blood until it seemed that Netaji?s living presence was with us in remote Takamatsu. Sri Chinmoy concluded his book by writing in his own hand a message to Netaji. It read, simply, ?Every Indian heart is your home.?

The book was finished, printed in New York, and sent by express courier back to Japan, reaching Sri Chinmoy, now in Kagoshima, the day before Netaji?s birthday. The following evening, we held the first major celebration of Netaji?s birthday. It was unforgettable.
Leaving Netaji Bhawan by taxi later that afternoon, after listening to the excellent speeches of the distinguished guests, I found myself stuck in traffic at the junction of Elgin and Chowringhee Roads. A parade was passing by, with marchers of different ages carrying photos of Netaji and the flag of his beloved Indian National Army. It brought home to me very vividly the fact that Netaji belongs not only to the intellectuals of Kolkata, whom I had just seen, but also to the common people. He was their leader, uniting Hindus, Muslims, Sikhs, Parsees and other religions under one banner. I recalled Netaji?s spirited call to the youth of Kolkata:

Arise, young men of Calcutta, with enthusiasm in your blood. The whole world has been made by the energy of man, by the power of enthusiasm, by the power of faith.

It is this rallying cry, containing echoes of Swami Vivekananda?s concept of manliness, that echoes even today, not just for Bengalis but for the whole world.

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The Search

Belur Math

Belur Math

Article by Dr. Vidagdha Bennett

There is an image of Swami Vivekananda that kept recurring to me when I arrived in Kolkata. Not the traditional image of him striding through India as an itinerant monk, dauntless in his quest, nor his fiery addresses at the Parliament of Religions, but something almost heartbreaking ? the image of him scaling the locked gate to gain entry to Belur Math, the monastery he himself had created.

The incident occurred towards the end of Swami Vivekananda?s life, when his body had started to break down irretrievably. He had made his last tour to London and America, saying farewell to his dear ones and entrusting the responsibilities of his work to his Gurubhais Abhedananda and Turiyananda. Now, after a long absence, he just wanted to go home ? to India, to Bengal, to his room at Belur Math. Unlike his earlier triumphant return, this time Swami Vivekananda did not inform anybody of his impending arrival. In his haste to reach India, he left the other members of his party in Cairo and travelled alone ? in itself an unusual occurrence for someone with so many distinguished disciples.

Swami Vivekananda disembarked from his steamer in Bombay and caught the train to Calcutta (now Kolkata), a trip taking upwards of forty hours. Arriving at Howrah Station in the late evening of December 9th, 1900, in the garb of a sahib, he managed to locate a horse carriage for himself and his luggage. Then he started for Belur Math. Alas, when he arrived at last, the monastery was locked up for the night.

Standing outside in the dark, having come so far ? truly an epic journey in those days ? Swami Vivekananda heard in the distance the ringing of the dinner bell. He hauled his failing body over the gate and hastened to the dining room. His Gurubhais were stunned to see him suddenly appear in their midst. I have it on good authority from Sankar, the great Bengali writer, that Swami Vivekananda was in a jovial mood and sat down for a hearty meal. Sankar also assures us that the gate in question was considerably smaller than the present-day one. Nonetheless, for someone who had essentially come back to India to wait for ?the Great Deliverer?, it was an extraordinary feat.

This was the Vivekananda I wanted to know ? the man who, having realised God, having conquered the world, was driven to return home; the same Naren who, as a young boy, had run wildly through the streets of Calcutta and the fields beyond to see his Master, Sri Ramakrishna, at Dakshineshwar, arriving with straw in his hair and his clothes in disarray.
In actual fact, nothing had changed. When he returned to India in 1900, he was still a boy running towards his Master, only this time he would see him only in the embrace of death. Swami Vivekananda had no wish ?to spit out the body? on foreign soil. He was determined to face the end in his own room, on his own terms.

In many respects, my Guru ? Sri Chinmoy ? had done the same thing on October 11th, 2007, the only difference being that after forty-three years abroad his home was in New York, not India. Sri Chinmoy travelled extensively in the last year of his life ? to Bulgaria, Thailand, Norway, Mongolia, San Diego, San Francisco, New Orleans and Russia. Indeed, he was seldom in New York, it seemed. But he chose to give up the body in his own room, on his own terms, returning to it just two weeks before his earth-departure and rarely leaving it in the days and nights that followed.

Perhaps mine was an irrational impulse, caused by an inability to accept Sri Chinmoy?s passing, but I felt that by seeing Swami Vivekananda?s beloved room at Belur Math, I would find some kind of insight. Perhaps I would understand more about these colossal Bengali souls who came to earth to literally shake us out of our torpor, our somnolence, and who then left again so quietly, without any fanfare.

On January 22nd, 2008, the morning after I arrived in Kolkata, I caught a taxi to Belur Math just before dawn, when only the sweepers were about in the streets and the massive span of the Howrah Bridge was largely empty of traffic. My taxi typically ran out of petrol on the approach to the bridge, but fortunately the driver had a plastic water bottle full of petrol in the trunk to see us through. Arriving at the gracious driveway to Belur Math, I could see that a busload of Indian pilgrims had just pulled up. They were intent on going directly to the ghat to bathe.
I followed at a different pace. I could discern the Hooghly River in the distance, fingers of mist drifting across its surface. But I was relishing the draughts of cool air rushing into my lungs, the lack of dust, the space to walk along the freshly swept path. I could see flowerbeds laid out with loving care, signs begging visitors to respect the sanctity of the entire area. And it was blissfully quiet. If anybody had approached me, I would have replied in a whisper. But it seemed that I was invisible ? a unique experience in the metropolis.

I found myself standing by the river, mesmerised by the bright red disc of the sun as it rose on the other side and the unutterable power of the whole place. This was the land that Vivekananda himself chose and loved, the soil that he had trodden. The Hooghly (Ganga) flows swiftly at this point and its surface appeared silvery in the morning light, flecked here and there with foliage it had gathered along the way.

Turning to the south, I followed the path to the place where Vivekananda?s body had been consigned to flames, near a vilva tree. In place of the original tree, an ancient offspring now grows and a small temple has been erected over the spot. In front of me and behind, monks were walking meditatively, wrapped in shawls against the chill, chanting under their breath, and slipping off their sandals to prostrate at the sacred shrines along the way. I am sure it was a routine they followed every day, but to me it represented an ideal of devotion.

I remembered how Nivedita, grief-stricken, had longed for a sign from her Master as the pyre was lit. Then a small piece of cloth from his ochre robe was carried by the breeze and landed in her lap where she sat on the ground a short distance away, weeping uncontrollably. It is so difficult for the Master so console his dear ones. To some he gives tangible signs, such as Nivedita had. To others he may appear in their dreams. Or the fragrance of his presence may be felt in more subtle ways ? a sudden lift of the heart, a wordless inspiration, a profound meditation.

I began to walk northwards along the path towards the monastery building where Vivekananda had his room, his sanctuary. It is on the second storey in the southeast corner and there is a double staircase leading to it from outside, as well as one inside that is used only by the monks. When you reach the stop of the creamy white stairs there are two windows opening into Vivekananda?s room. Neither one has glass, but both have bars. I believe the bars were there also when Vivekananda was alive as it is mentioned that on the occasion of Sri Ramakrishna?s birthday in February 1900, Vivekananda felt very feverish and could not join the monks in their celebrations. So he stood at the window, holding onto the bars as he watched the festivities below.

I completed the reverse image, standing at the nearest window, holding onto the bars and, with tears streaming down my face, devouring each detail of the room inside. It all seemed so familiar. How many times had I had seen this room in my imagination! The graceful curve of the wall of the building on the side nearest the river is highlighted by two feature windows, both with shutters. On this winter morning, the shutters were flung open to reveal the river in all its majesty and a bracing air filled the room. Just in front of the window was Vivekananda?s desk, still with its original blotting-pad, pen, ink and paper. Most importantly, a small photograph of Sri Ramakrishna adorns the desk.

The room contains two beds: a large iron bedstead that looks supremely comfortable, but which Vivekananda used infrequently (it was the gift of one of his Western disciples), and a simple couch. There is also a cot covered with a deerskin on which he liked to sit and meditate. Three different doors open into the room. Between them, at various places, are Swami Vivekananda?s musical instruments, a rack for his clothes and a tall mirror. A tea service is spread out on a small table in anticipation of a summons.

It is a supremely accessible room and one could easily envision Swami Vivekananda, with his expansive personality, writing at his desk, keeping an eye on his brother-monks working outside in the yard or the welfare of his pet animals, calling out for tea or issuing instructions, enveloping the entire Math with his presence. It is a room that literally throbs with Vivekananda?s vibration, even now more than a hundred years later.

As I gazed at the room, I saw my own Master?s room in New York, as if overlaid on the retinas of my eyes: Sri Chinmoy?s chair, around which everything he needed was arrayed in a widening circle ? telephone, pens, papers, books, musical instruments, dumbbells, drawing supplies and so forth. This room was the hub of his worldwide mission. There he meditated for hours on end, dictated poems, composed songs, played the esraj and other instruments, drew millions of birds, spoke on the telephone, conversed with his disciples, answered their questions. Ultimately, it was there that our Master, still at heart a Shakpura village boy, heard the call to go Home.

He is gone and we are left behind, gazing through bars in foreign lands, searching for his face in the faces of strangers. I had thought the search was finite, a phase of loss. Standing at Belur Math, it came to me that as long as we are granted time on this earth, this search can never have an end.

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